is this called REBORN

i doubt I am reborn: u have not heard from me for a long time and I sit now in some sanity and some sadness : in the actual reality of what it is to be hunted with energy? awareness now of things I never knew of many and an absolute dis interest in the human being: a kindness and softness maybe never known and also some arrogance as to what I am being called to do: live life day to day as a normal chic with no agenda?